[later tht night...]
Sylvia: [finally came out of her room frm her long nap. She had skipped dinner altogether n was pretty hungry. Made sure the coast is clear before making her way into the kitchen to raid the fridge]
???: Hey, Sleeping Beauty.
Sylvia: [jumped at the voice, arming herself with a fork as she spun round]
Wander: (smirk) About time you woke up. (crossed arms, leaning against doorway)
Sylvia: [sighed in relief at upon seeing Wander] Ooff, u scared me, buddy. U knw better than to sneak up behind me. I could've killed u |-( [turned bk to the fridge]
Wander: (raises eyebrow) Still hungry? If I didn't know better, it's almost like you're eating for two. :^)
Sylvia: Of course I'm hungry, I slept thru dinner, it shouldn't be a surprise [got out a bunch of food n puts them in the counter n started munching]
Wander: :| Sylvia. Mama found out the truth of why you're like this.
Sylvia: Pfft, wat does she know? |-( [continued eating]
Wander: ...You're pregnant aren't you?
Sylvia: [almost choked on a ham sandwich, coughed a bit before clearing her throat] ...Ahem... No, I'm not...
Wander: :^) (isn't buying it)
Sylvia: [stares at Wander's facial expression n let out a long sigh] (facepalm) OK so I am...expecting a little. Happy now?
Wander: Well...disappointed with two things; you went on a dangerous mission while with child and could've caused a miscarraige on yourself. And you haven't informed Peepers on this at all, have you?
Sylvia: [a long pause as she munched] .....it would've been better if he didn't knw, n if the baby miscarried... well, it was a gamble I'm willing to take
Wander: Sylvia, you should know better then that! It's not like he'd turn into his father! (looks around) ^^;; Don't tell him I said that.
Sylvia: No, I'm afraid he would become something worse entirely. If only u knew wat happened, wat he almost did...
Wander: ...What did he do?
Sylvia: [sighed n told him abt his reaction wen he saw her kissing Awesome n Ryder] ....and it was only on the cheek! A goodbye n good luck kiss! He wanted to kill himself over that! U know self-destructive u hv to be to do tht? I'm a woman, dammit! I don't want to be the one who is always needing to apologize for every little thing I do that doesn't make him happy! That's toxic! N I don't want my child to grow up with a dad that has those type of emotional baggage! I didn't even want to get knocked up in the first place! I was stupid drunk n forgot to take my jab! I got careless! N I don't want to pay for my carelessness forever with this...this thing inside me! I wished I never knew that stupid Pipsqueak in the first place! I wish I never had fallen for him! [was breathing heavily after venting it all out]
Wander: :( Sylvia... (pets her back in attempts of comfort)
Sylvia: I don't want this..!! I'm not keeping it! If it dies, it dies. I don't care! If it stays till term, I'll give it away for adoption as soon as it's born! I'll hide underground if I hv to, I don't want him to know! He doesn't deserve to know...!! Not wen he's like this...!! [buried her face in her hands n sobbed]
Peepers: (was walking outside the hallway but stopped when he heard Sylvia and kept out of sight listening)
Wander: (hugs her) Sylvia, I know you're worried about how he'll react but one way or another, he'd have to know. Like, I know didn't when Hater was first pregnant but I didn't get too upset with him afterwards, did I?
Peepers: (shock)
Sylvia: I'm not worried abt how he reacts wen he knows. He's too nice for his own good. He'll accept it no matter wat. He's already all gaga over me. I just can't bring myself to allow him to be the father of my child knowing tht he can't even help himself! N haven't u heard a word I said? I don't want this baby! I never wanted it in the first place! I screwed up n got stupid n careless n now I hv to live with this reminder of a mistake? I can't! I won't!
Wander: :( Sylvia...you're just scared right now...about not being a good mother, is that it?
Sylvia: No, I'm not! How many times do I have to tell u? I. Don't. Want. It!
Wander: Sylvia! (sighs) Just... give it time before you make any hasty decisions at least, okay? You don't even know if Peepers even wants to be a father...to have a family of his own...with someone he loves.
Peepers: :( (silently leaves without them seeing him)
Sylvia: Well hv u ever thought tht it's just as selfish to ask me to do something I don't want just to make someone else happy wen it doesn't make me happy? Relationship are supposed to be mutual, isn't it? Ugh! [shoved Wander away] Whatever! It's like I'm talking to a wall. I knew I shouldn't hv said anything. I don't want it, n that's final. Baby lives or dies, it's up to fate. I don't care anymore [takes more food n carried them all the way to her room to eat]
Wander: ... :( (thinks: I tried...)
Sylvia: [stayed her room, stuffing herself as she ate n cried at the same time]
Wander: (has exited kitchen, looking up to see Wildflower waiting for him)
Wildflower: Hey. I heard shouting from the kitchen. The...talk didn't go well?
Wander: No...she doesn't want the baby...doesn't care if it lives or dies...
Wildflower: I don't reli blame her. She's been living a carefree life all this time, n working with u is dangerous business. Now with a baby in the mix, she's prolly thinking that it'll cramp her style, restrict her from her fun-filled lifestyle. I'm not saying I'm OK with it, but I understand. If it were me, I'd probably think the same thing in her shoes
Wander: So...she should ignore thinking if Peepers even wants to be a parent?
Wildflower: I think it's something she should sort out herself with Peepers. We can only talk to her so much. It's up to her to decide her actions. It's her life after all, not ours [patted Wander's bk]
Wander: True...
Wildflower: Well, now tht Hater's status is all sorted out, maybe u might want to propose to him again? Make it official?
Wander: :O Oh right, almost forgot all about that. Is he still with the litter?
Wildflower: I think he is. Was going to put the litter to bed [nudged him] Go get 'em, tiger ;)
Wander: ^///^ (hurries off to see Hater)
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